Sometime, I'm doing nothing on my room.
Silent. No phone. No laptop. Doing nothing.
Just look up at the ceiling and have been thinking if life is so tired.
I don’t know my goals anymore, and messed up my life. I just want to be more happy person with no goals.
I have a dream, a long ago. But it was changed. I wanna make my parents proud of me but I still make them disappointed. I try my best but often get unsuitable results.
Reality really beating my expectations. *deep sigh*
I accepted. Because peoples always give me positive vibes like
"failure is the key to be successful".
But sometimes, I feel tired from failing so many times. I am not angry at God, because God is my place to complain my whole life without fear of being judged. But I just feel tired. I just don't know what the reason I still stay here. Doing things that aren't my passion. I've tried before to enjoy what I've been through, but I can't lie to myself about what truly I want.
Want to make my parents happy but don't know what to do.
Have you ever been confused with yourself, confused about the future, and feeling lost? Because I'm feeling it now.
Maybe I really have to get closer to God longer. Talk a lot, complain, and be grateful for giving people who love and always supporting me.
For my parents and my friends, thanks for always being there for me.
And Allah who loves me very much and always gives a temptation to make me stronger. Thank you so much.
I will rise and fight again for my parents, and myself.
Warmly, 292 words from the bottom of my heart.
